I have been bummed in some ways that we had to wait until May to start another round of IVF. On Friday, I figured out why God may have delayed this. I am currently covering a maternity leave in which the therapist was suppose to come back to work in early May at least 3 days a week (previously she was 5 days). This Friday she came into the office with her baby and talked with administration. She is not coming back this school year. That simple fact has increased my workload at least double if not triple since now I am in charge of all the end of the year paperwork, summer programs, evaluations, meetings, and make-up time from my hospitalization and mono absence.
I also tutor in handwriting and recently have had a lot of calls and emails asking for me to help various children. I usually avoid starting kids now and try to have them wait for the summer as my work is usually extremely busy this time of year. Since I thought Jackie was returning to work in a few weeks, I have started 3 more students which takes a lot of time.
So, I am praying that May will be our month that IVF will be a go and it will work. I have to remember that I can give my best at work but I can't kill myself giving all my energy to my job if I want to have kids. My new motto is do my best, do what needs to be done, but don't be perfect or a "miracle worker." I will get all the therapy time in for these kids, try to teach them a few things, and help them see that working on their fine motor skills can be fun.
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