Decisions.. Decisions...

My husband is driving me crazy wanting to know what we are doing. Didn't I mention I wanted to pray for 30 days? Patience, grasshopper, Patience!


The doctor called us on Monday after our beta was 0. He said he would change a lot of things if we did it again. He said there were some egg quality issues, although the 2 embryo's that were transferred were day 3 8-cell grade 1 and day 3 8-cell grade 2. We had 6 others; one wasn't able to be fertilized, one did not grow after being fertilized (we used ICSI), and the 4 others were not great quality. We were told we had a 10% chance that any of the four would make it to blast-- one did so maybe we can beat the odds. He said he would use assisted hatching if we did it again as well as more antibiotics. He also said he would change the meds to help the quality but didn't give us specifics on that. I did have much more peace about everything after talking with him and having our questions answered. He said we should still qualify for shared risk so we may go that route (again, my husband wants to know "NOW" -- does it matter, we can't do it now-- we have to wait until May at least as I have a maternity leave I am covering and really can't miss any work until I am done with that coverage). Technically I was to start that coverage on the day we found out our beta so no time to do anything for at least 8 weeks. I need my job to afford this.

So, we are to today. My husband called me up at work letting me know that we could get a credit card with 0% interest. Wants to know if we should do that? Wait-- we don't need to do anything now. Honestly besides our house and my student loan, we have no debt. We were working on paying off the student loan and somewhat following Dave Ramsey's teachings. I don't want to charge my kids nor do I think God wants us to charge our kids. I think Todd is in a panic because it didn't work this time and he thought it would work. I never had a strong feeling about it this time, I wanted it to work but May has always been in my head. Two rounds full cost is cheaper than shared risk. I am not in a panic. I just wish he would allow me my 30-days-- even if we make every decision today, nothing will be done until May so there isn't an advantage of figuring out everything today.